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Dear Chase,Im not quite sure where to begin I know this past week has been a mess, both our faults, Im not erect directing it towards you. I have had ten million things running through my mind the past few days, and I am going to try and foil a few of them out right now.For one, I do cherish your friendship, alike(p) I said in one of my messages, you and I have divided things and conversations about our lives, our families that I would never with anyone else. The main reason for that is because I trust you, and you listen to me, as I do to you. I can say that I have had some of the most wonderful snips with you that I have ever had in my entire life. I had told you before that when you talk I delay onto every word that comes out of your mouth and its like they are engraved in the back of my mind forever. I dont know why you have that come to on me maybe its the fact that we have become such good friends. To be quite honest with you, I dont trust people very soft as you very we ll know, and I could probably say the same for you. I think that is why I did let that wall down and let you into my life and my heart, because I felt safe. Let me ask you, why do I feel like building it back up?Let me rationalise what I want in my life. I want someone to share my laughter and my fears, someone to listen and be there when I feel like the world is crashing down on me. I want to give that same courtesy back to them in return. I dont want someone standing at my door waiting for me to get home, or around constantly, because that drives me absolutely crazy. I do think that since you and I have spent so much time together that I have become a little dependant on you, and wanting to talk to you. That doesnt necessarily mean seeing you every day, or a three-hour phone send for, but just the reassurance to know that you are in fact still there. Is that too much for you? It sometimes feels like you only call when you know I am upset because you havent called. You hardly eve r call just because you want to.